its 4am and I've spent last couple of hours pacing around the house in pain. Experiencing quite a bad gallstone / gallbladder flare up at the moment.
Pain relief isn't working. Been feeling very sick all day. My feet are swollen.
Just holding on in there because I've been told I'm very near the top of the gallbladder surgery waiting list. Been on the list since July 2018. Had my first A&E admission in March 2018. But I've been experiencing flare ups, extreme cramps and sickness since June 2017.
In hindsight I've had gallbladder disease symptoms for at least 5 years. I just put up with them not really know what they were. I thought everyone felt ill and rotten all the time.
I feel rundown and exhausted. My nails & skin are awful. I'm self employed and work from home. I couldn't imagine holding down a full time job feeling like this.
It's the worst pain I have ever experienced in my whole life.
I'm going to make some oat bread in my bread machine tomorrow and eat small amounts of that. Plain. And drink water. Hopefully it'll give my body a bit of a break.
At least I have my art room I can spend time in prancing mindfulness drawing to help manage my pain.
Art really is my best therapy. (Nothing's working tonight though)
Monochrome layered landscape in watercolour. Angie Hewitt